hello,

im trying to get used to this routine. somehow, i dont know who else to turn to. sometimes, i just want to go see my college counselor. cause i cant take it anymore. searching for a friend to listen. but ended up crying myself to sleep each night.

its so hard for me to tell my friends that i havent moved on. cause if that happens, i then look weak. people will start judging me for being stupid. so i wake up everyday, feeling that life is such a challenge and life is so tough.

yes, i admit, i am now depress. i never knew or never felt that before. but now, im going through it. on my own, which is even more sadder. always think that god has better plan for me. i know that. but i do feel alone. lonely. everything around that.

you have brought me to cloud 9 then push me back down to zero. to nothing. never knew a person like u existed. never knew a person so charming have that courtesy to even think about doing that. who am to judge anyway?

it wasnt your fault. you had enough didnt you? you were bored. thank you for giving me the chance to go through my life with hardship. i will never forget you or what you did or what i have become because of you.

i just need to let my feelings out. and all of my feelings, all of my thoughts.. all about you.

attitudes, will discuss about this matter soon xo

hello,

people think when i put my blog url on twitter or facebook, i trying to find followers. but no, im not asking people to follow. i just want you guys to read what ive been going through. so you can learn or something. so you wont do the same mistake like i did.

i may not be perfect, but i try. i try to get close to God. cause its the only thing that matter

i can say that im getting stronger day by day. actually i was really mad last night, and i wrote you a hate letter. soon, im gonna give you back your stuff. but i dont know when is the right time to do that.

so how are you guys? any problems you would like to share?